crossfire.

work hasn't been too bad these past few days. at least we didn't get thrown into the fire immediately BUT we kinda did have to hit the ground running after two days of induction briefings
i found myself emailing the big people upstairs within two days of work.
and then the big people halfway across the world.
emailing my career inspiration. someone whose work you used to read in political science classes on singapore's foreign policy. is now your direct boss. someone you email back and forth about three times a day.
i know this is geeky...but for me it's like being able to talk to a celebrity. daily.

i'm getting sick of my short hair. i miss being able to flip it around and not having to blow-dry it every morning. urgh. but sometimes i find my bob awesome because not many people can carry it off...and i can! ;) (according to majority consensus)

i also need to buy more work clothes.
this is killing me, every morning i wake up and open the closet and stare at it blankly for 5 minutes, not knowing what to do. fighting the urge to head back to bed and not turn up for work because i am simply lazy.by.nature.

can i stop working please?

i met someone and i really like him and i don't really want to think about it or talk about it too much because i'm afraid. and i'm scared that i'll lose myself and get too ahead and then i will be disappointed. i am afraid of being disappointed by too many expectations. so i will make sure i have none.

why am i not a happy person?