crazy.

wow i realised i've abandoned this blog for a month. for good reasons, really.
i've been spending waay too much time in front of the computer at work. no wait, in front of three computers. yes i've got three computers to deal with. sucks huh?
by the time i'm home, i just want to either crash or watch tv. or have some alone time.
and i guess, not wanting to pen down my thoughts is a manifestation of my brain not wanting to work the minute i enter my house.

a lot of things have been going on in my life lately.
alpha course has been fun. today we heard this story of a couple brought back together from the brink of divorce, through God.
and then a friend asked me whether i had kept in contact with you. i said, i tried but it didn't get very far - i.e. i guess you're not ready or you didn't believe what i had to say in that message i sent a few months back.

so i guess i did my part? in trying to work things out, as friends? in trying to rebuild the bridges we had burnt about a year and a half ago. i don't know if i should try and reach out to you again or at least somewhere down the road, but right now i've got so many things on my mind...work, life, yoga (yes yoga), so many things to do so little time..that i find it hard to sit down and search inside me to figure out what to say to you and how. sometimes i wish you'd put the past aside and meet me at that halfway mark. maybe you can't? maybe you're not ready? but who's to know, right?

so, maybe tomorrow. maybe.

i've decided to keep a prayer diary. and maybe try and recount all the blessings that i've been endowed with over the past years. it's amazing really how, as time keeps flying past, we rarely stop to smell the roses that God has helped to plant along the way. sometimes we trample over them and we forget that they're there. i'm going to make a note to myself to take that time out everyday and learn to be thankful.
and i keep hanging on.

happiness is just round this corner, i think.