edge of desire.

ooooh i really love this song! listen to the lyrics..


the days have been passing really quickly... it's been more than two weeks since my last paper, and i dare say i am enjoying this holiday! will be flying off this saturday for a week, have been meeting up with people and catching up with friends all over almost everyday, and it's been awesome and fantastic.

it's been another tiring day today. it'll probably be equally tiring tomorrow, but you know what? it doesn't matter, and i've go the energy and i'm gonna keep going because i don't have time. i don't have the time to sit around.

christmas is coming! (YAY!) but i'll be overseas (double YAY!)

looking back at these past couple of months, things have really changed alot for me. and i can't safely say that things are better, but i can safely say that i am happy. and if that means anything at all, then i would say it's worth it, that everything i've been through is and was worth the pain.

on the other hand, i feel like i'm on the brink of something new. i know i'm on the verge of a new phase in life, and that in one semester's time i will graduate, i will go on a fantastic grad trip (because, yes that's just the way it is and the way it will be!) and i will finally settle down into a job, and hopefully build a career out of it. will i devote myself entirely to it? i don't know. will i become entirely successful? i don't know. will this come at the expense of my social life, and maybe my future family? i don't know.

but, do i want it to be that way? no. no of course not. no.

i know that things are going to change for me, very, very soon. but the funny thing is, along the way, i feel like i have grown and learnt to accept change (?!) and maybe this is not something very unusual for you, but it definitely is unusual for me. i never used to be like this. i was always rigid, routinised, afraid of change, afraid of having to adapt to something new once i'd gotten so entirely used to the old world order.
now, it's just more of go with the flow?
i mean i can't say for certain that i'm not rigid and uptight anymore. i'm pretty sure there's still those bits in me.

ARGH. okay enough, enough.
have a good holiday :)