the end is just the beginning.

okay take a deep breath of last year's air. and breathe out into the new year.

as i sit here writing my final post for 2009, i am flooded with a thousand emotions, a myriad of memories, some good, most bad and all very, very nostalgic.
i am in a position of retrospect now, and you do not have to convince me that things will look better or that everything happens for a reason. because after these 8 months, i am sold.

i know that everything happens for a reason. i know that if given the choice to rewind and go back in time, i wouldn't try and change anything, anyone or even myself. i was who i was back then, and now, i am who i am.

the only thing left for me to do now, is to internalise the lesson and follow through with the rest of my life.

so what i will do now, is list all the good things i've done for 2009:

1) learnt to be more independent
2) spent much more time with friends and family
3) made new friends
4) worked harder than ever in school
5) enjoyed life and relaxed more
6) stopped hating

things i want to accomplish in 2010

1) listen
2) be at peace with myself
3) lead a healthier lifestyle
4) get a job
5) but never let that job get me
6) love more

i normally do not make resolutions. never ever. especially new years' resolutions. because i think they are cliched, and because i usually forget them within two weeks, and thus never really kept to them. but i figured, that these resolutions are pretty broad and not out of my reach and ability.

if i told you i wasn't afraid of the new year, i'd be lying. because who isn't? it's change, it's new, it's different. and it's natural to be afraid of that. but that's not going to stop me.

i am going to do everything in my power to make sure 2010 will be a good start to the next decade. good by 2000s, it's been fun, it's been up and down, and i've grown up along with you. thank you for the memories.


happy new year, everyone :)