surreal.

i learnt today that i need to start my life anew.
i will have one, final test at the end of this week, and then i'm done.
i'm done with formal education, for now, at least.
and it feels...surreal...new...daunting.

and surprisingly, i'm just like any other fresh-faced grad...a little optimistic, a little cautious, somewhat jaded with school, somewhat excited about the prospect of earning big bucks, feeling like maybe, suddenly everything is just possible.

it's like the first day of school all over again.
remember that feeling?
when you left home, and your parents took you to school and dropped you right at the doorway of your classroom and waved goodbye.
some of us teared, others sobbed, others looked around at the classroom, wide-eyed.
i remember, i had a big, rectangular schoolbag, a cute bob for a haircut, super high socks and a lunchbox with food for recess.
i remember my parents taking a photo of me, at the school foyer.
i remember feeling all different in the freshly pressed uniform, such an unfamiliar feeling

i feel like i've just transported myself right back to day one.
it's been a daunting journey guys. a journey, no a chapter, of a book that we're about to close and one that we'll flip through occasionally, down the years, later on...when we're in the midst of our careers.
almost 20 years of education. this is just the beginning. it's preparation for the rest of your life. that's just how i see it.

scary. i'm scared. but i am excited.
there's so many things to look forward to now, and i feel like (almost naively) the entire world's my oyster.
many, many adventures ahead.
that's what makes life so damn worth it right, don't you think?

the people, the fun, the work, the highs and the lows...you just never know what's gonna hit you, or how it's gonna hit.

i'm still waiting to fall in love :)
because i suppose, i'm a romantic at heart.
and even if i've been hurt before, and am likely to be hurt again, i'd say...to hell with that!
i'll protect my heart but i won't guard it from intrusions.

i don't know why, everything feels so free today.