bruised.

something scary has been happening lately.

i've been getting random bruises on my body when i don't recall bumping into anything or falling down or such.
and these bruises, some of them are painful, others are not.
they are also in weird shapes.
i currently have one on my forearm in the shape of a ring. like a 10-cent coin with a hole in the middle. i took a picture of it hehehe. i think i will start documenting these bruises from now on

my mum asked me what it was...and then she got so paranoid! she think it's the beginning of some blood-related disorder or disease...worse still, she thinks its leukemia! and she has a case for it i must admit.
my grandma died from it, and i'm slightly thalassaemic.

i think i have to monitor these bruises and hopefully they are really just the product of clumsiness and nothing else.

hehe i wikipedia-ed the symptoms of leukemia:

Damage to the bone marrow, by way of displacing the normal bone marrow cells with higher numbers of immature white blood cells, results in a lack of blood platelets, which are important in the blood clotting process. This means people with leukemia may easily become bruised, bleed excessively, or develop pinprick bleeds (petechiae).

it just scares me.

maybe i have to start being nicer to people now.
but i am nice, aren't i?

it is my birthday tomorrow!
i am happy.
and i think that's good enough a thing.
a mid-term test today will not
faze me, and i'll employ whatever ability i can to get through it.
most of
all, i'm hoping to be able to put this behind me and enjoy the rest of the week
and the mid-sem break.

i hope it all works out well :)

these
bruises really scare me though.
and they are unnaturally red, like they are
still bleeding beneath my skin.
and since i'm tan, they must be rather red
and bright enough to show up on my dark skin right?
so freaky and unnatural.
i'm really afraid. like for the first time in my life, this is a realistic
possibility. like a real real thing that might happen. and i've never considered
this before.

on a lighter note, i've been thinking of upgrading my
5-year old ipod mini to the new nano. the one with the camera and the video
capability! i think it's kinda nice, and i would really like a new nano for my
birthday. and since i cannot convince any of you to get me one, i shall have to
use my birthday money for it.
it currently retails for $228 (SGD) for the
8gb one, and $288 for the 16gb one at the apple store online. what do you think?
it would help while i'm driving, when i'm studying and generally when i'm trying
to block out surrounding noise. i'll probably go for the 16gb one since it makes
more sense (and it's more VALUE FOR MONEHHHH)
also i kinda like the limited
edition red colour one, and it makes me happy that some of the proceeds go to
AIDS funding in Africa.

i think i shall sleep early tonight.
my
mid-term tomorrow is at 6pm (urgh) but it's open book so i'm feeling a little
insecure, and yet a little useless...haha cos there's really nothing to study
then, especially since it's an essay test.