i miss you. i can't describe this accurately. i don't think i am in love with you anymore, but i miss being with you, being around you. Its the same feeling of missing someone who has just died. That's really how it feels. Just sadness and nostalgia and pain all rolled into one super messed up emotion that comes and goes as and when it wishes, and sometimes it can overwhelm you and fill your heart to the brim.

and yet, I hate myself for feeling this way. I wish I could forget you, forget us. And I wish I could detach myself from all of this as easily as you have.